Days Later

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I think I am falling in love with POV-Ray, it is getting much easier to use, and stuff is beginning to look real good…

Improvment

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I think it is looking better and better…

More…

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Working on some stuff…

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Anger Becomes Me

Now, I don’t know how many of you know this, but I do have a fairly serious anger management problem. I know almost everyone has seen me in a fairly decent mood. I have worked long and hard to cope with my anger, but there are times where I just can not maintain control. One of those times happened tonight in the chat. The President of the Addicts Network, of whom I am COO and Community Director for, maintained the ideals of continually telling me to “Shut the F up”. This had gotten on my nerves, and one time, I just went a little too far. I chewed him out, and good. This did place my position within the Addicts Network hierarchy in danger, but I can honestly say that once I travel across that little line… I am not the same person. There is very little chance of reasoning with me… that in itself is a problem. I do not think before I say or act. I have put holes in walls, broken things, and actually had fistfights with my father. Now, mind you, my father can defend himself. When I get like that, I don’t feel pain, and I fight really well.

I have tried to seek counseling for this, but none seems to be effective. I was abused when I was younger, and do believe that to be the root of my anger. I wish there was more I could do, but it has taken me many years to reach the level that I have. My bouts with depression and such have not made this any easier. Because, when you are depressed, and are thinking of suicide, a little violence does not seem so bad. I am happy I am not currently at that point, as I now look and can not see how ending my own life would solve anything, that it is just ridiculous.

I am glad I can blog, helps me vent some of my steam sometimes, and I am sorry to bug you with such personal stuff after something as fun as GnomieWocky… but… that’s the way the ball bounces…

Peace, out…

GnomieWocky

GnomieWocky
By: Justin Fredenburgh (aka Admiral Justin)
Based on: Jabberwocky
By: Lewis Carroll (Charles Lutwidge Dodgson)

‘Twas unix, and the hats of red
Did shake and rattle in the chat
All flimsy were the CD-R’s.
And the chatters had fun.

“Beware the Blue Screen, my bud!
The screens that die, the errors Grow!
Beware the Bill Gates word, and shun
The 1337 hacker Wannabee!”

He took his LockerGnome email
Long time the windows fix he sought—
So rested he by the BSD
And compiled the kernel

And, as in upset thought he screamed,
Windows Daily has arrived
Came from the internet as it does,
And opened as it could!

One Two! True Blue! And Gnomes too
The Blue Screen went and hid and ran!
He left it dead, and with his drink
He went connecting back.

“And have you fixed the Blue Screen yet?
Come to my system, prideful joy!
O what a day! Huzzah! Hurrah!
He drank his Code Red today.”

‘Twas unix, and the hats of red
Did shake and rattle in the chat
All flimsy were the CD-R’s.
And the chatters had fun.

Close Call

Well, in a very near miss the registration for aspyre.net almost lapsed and there would have had to hav ebeen a massive change to the apsyredotnet bloggers…

And we all know foofy has been working ever so hard to keep aspyre going… I mean… look at this logo…

How an you not love that?

anyways… tis lyric time…

Drowning Pool – Tear Away

I’m tearing away
Pieces are falling I can’t seem to make them stay
You run away
Faster and faster you can’t seem to get away
Break
Hope there’s a reason
For questions unanswered I just don’t see everything
Yes I’m inside you
Tell me how does it feel to feel like this
Just like I do
I don’t care about anyone else but me
I don’t care about anyone
Do I really want this
Sometimes I scare myself I just can’t let it go
Can you believe it
Everything happens for reasons I just don’t know
I don’t care about anyone else but me
I don’t care about anyone
I don’t care about anyone else but me
I don’t care about anyone or anything but me
Damn I love me

Justi pimping an old CD of mine…

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Longish stuff

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Tada!!!

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